i need to stop crying. i should be happy! i deserve to be happy ! one day i’m going to look at the couple of people i cried for and laugh at myself for it. but now … i’m nowhere near happy. a “bestfriend” is never forever..even though i was naiive to think this was true… *sigh* life goes on i guess … deleteing numbers for good… i deserve so much better then what  i’m getting.